I’m only really getting into posting these to my various ‘walls’ now… of which there are not many, might I add. Although I know my way around the halls of cyberspace pretty well at this point, I’m still an ol’ fashioned gal when it comes to my writing and self-promotion. Yes, I’ve got things to say, but I’m not here to soap-box, if you catch my drift. Oh there are subjects I could get up and rant about, nothing surer – and I’d start with politicians and the hypocrisy of modern religion, but I’m a firm believer of being allowed to have your own opinion, just not into having them shoved down my throat, thank you. And so I don’t come on here to judge or persuade, just to get the thoughts out, ‘on to paper’, as it were.
With that in mind, you may understand when I say I’m disappointed with the feedback – or rather lack thereof. With the exception of a few brave souls, I’ve had none. I wouldn’t mind that if I didn’t know that people were reading what I’ve posted so far, so why? Why not say, ‘Hey you’re full of shit girl, get a grip’ or ‘That was nice’ or ‘Hadn’t thought of it like that!’ or ‘Are you off your rocker?’ ! Anything – click like, rate – whatever, just to acknowledge you’re ‘hearing’ me, ‘cos really, that’s what this is all about. Knowing that I’ve been heard. To be understood would be awesome, but here ‘heard’ will do. That’s where the self-promotion comes in, I’m not into it and never was inclined to blow my own trumpet. I think I’m even kind of inclined to judge people on how they read me, as opposed to how they are themselves. No room for trumpets. If they can read me at all, then there’s hope for a long and solid friendship. If they even bother to try, then we’re on our way to somewhere that ain’t just acquaintance. But, to bypass what’s staring in-front of them completely – often too absorbed in themselves? then we’ll never be friends. That certainly will not mean that they would have to only want to know about me throughout our friendship, it will simply mean to me that they are worthy of all the wondrous things I will give to them, as my friend. Things that are sacred to me and that I would expect in return. Things like respect, honesty, my loyalty, my trust and my truths. Then you will truly know who I am and you will know that I truly like you and respect you.
For me, here is a million miles from Facebook and social networking sites in general. They are about peoples lives and how they are living theirs. Often thoughts are shared there about how we are feeling, or when we need to let out steam occasionally (every 5 minutes for some) and let’s face it, you’re pretty much going to see what the account holder wants you to no? Generally it’s not a place we put up our dirty laundry is it? Or photos of our bad hair days? You will never see me naked on Facebook – not EVER, but you will find me ‘naked’ here. Thoughts from the deepest cornices of my multifaceted mind, open for discussion and rational ridicule and maybe even occasionally a bit of admiration. Given the way I write and more to the point, how I think, I won’t be putting it out like simple mathematics, you’ll have to do some of the work yourself. Figure it out. Between the posts and the poetry and lyrics, you’ll uncover the story… eventually. I hope to continue posting and one day jam the whole lot into a biography, or book of memoirs when I’ve seen what I’ve to see on this planet and learned almost all I can learn. It’ll be interesting to look back along the whole road then. It won’t be a book of fairy-tales – at least not the first half, lol, but I hope it will gather dust as it passes down through future generations, just the same.
So here is not my life on show, it’s me. Thanks so much to those of you have acknowledged and/or commented, you can see now how I appreciate it. To you and those of you who will remain in the shadows for reasons of their own (and really that’s ok too), I hope you get something special from here, or that I may come out with something that helps you in some good way. For those who just can’t be bothered, but will continue to come back? this is how I see it, I wouldn’t enter someones house and not tell them, have a good look around and leave – would you? ;o)x
Love & Light